butterfly__________

Sunday, October 30, 2005
11:09 PM

I have decided to learn guitar. due to weiying:) such a sweet kind girl same fan club as me somemore. meiting has decided to gif me her guitar. all i gotta do is to fix e strings n yea i wud have a guitar. my tchr wud be len i hope. haha. n mb on jason's birthday, we can play happy birthday song to him on our guitars. n u n weiqi can give him a kiss on e left n right cheeks. haha. lookin forward to tt day.

today was great. went to play badminton with my church frens. i realise i have a lot of patience for kids. mainly cos i love them. i can teach a kid to swing the racket for as many times as 15. yes tts how patient i am. n despite the fact tt he neva did master it. my choruses of " good, tts a gd improvemnt jiayou!" totally cheered him up. a smile on his face n " minsi jie jie" was more than enough to melt my heart. cheers to him.

n i have decided if i have kids in future i am goin to get them badminton rackets for children!!! so cute. they r actually shorter than the actual racket which makes it easier for the kids to play. n i enjoy playing with children. they are so enthusiastic about everything! and i love it when they call me minsi jie jie. the rackets are e cutest. n not to mention i love to entertain them by jokin n doin little tricks. love kids. as long as they dun irritate me.

yes n i have finally decided to embark on a journey of dieting. i have finally decided tt apperances do matter after all. and noone wud want a fat girl realli. and even if they want. the guys wud be sub-standard. harsh but tts e truth.

lemme ask u a few qns.
1. when a 80 yr old man marry a 20 yr old girl, your first thot wud be is he crazy tt girl is obviously after his $$!- tag on e board if u think tis way.
2. when u see a fat girl with a thin n gorgeous boyfren, your first thot wud be he is either blind or tt girl is freaking rich.
3. u see a beautiful girl with an ugly, fat n old guy, your first thot wud be he must be loaded/

and im not jus basing all these judgements on empty words. it is def wad wud happen. and in this pragmatic world of ours. love do not surpass everything. money does. tts not my words tho.
in my world, true love do exists. i be;ieve in first, true, last n eternal one. i believe in " till death do us apart" statements. i believe in anything the society does not believe in.

considering that, my belief has started to diminish as i see hoards of ppl goin to centres attempting to lsoe weight. ugly ppl goin for plastic surgeries. ppl goin for extreme make-over. do you realli look tt bad? even i dun tink i look bad. anyone with confidence shud look gd. and afterall we are all God's creations. how can we look bad???

and lastly, ppl pls learn how to dive. cos singapore may jus submerge soon. n mb we wun c each other ever again. live everyday as if it was ur last.

butterfly___________