butterfly__________

Friday, November 04, 2005
11:04 PM

i jus lost an entire blog now i have to recapture the feeling. the one i just lost.
and my dear bro jus told me im gonna fail my gp cos i blog everyday even after i coach him on ss. thanks a lot bro.

I was jus saying....im in pain...my external conflicts have jus ended n now i have an internal struggle..why do i have to experience trials after trials???SOMEBODY SAVE ME.... i hate feeling like that.

have u eva tried sitting alone in ur room listening to endless number of love songs? and think about him> >>>> im doing that now...to my agony...

have u eva felt the uncontrollable urge to hug him> cos u like him>? or over affection? i have no idea. i jus wanna hug him. ahhhhhh

or laugh suddenly in the middle of no where cos u tink of all the nice times u ahd w him? ive been doing tt a lot lately....damn..

or cry non-stop when he hurts ur feelings...u feel like punching him but cant bear to? n when it hurts esp so if tt guy is someone u like....

or when he reserves sth specially for u, u feel so touched u wanna cry and jus give him a peck on the cheek and say " i like u:)" even when u r so not worthy of it, he saved it for u and not other girls else.

or even u r not very pretty but he only has eyes for u? ahhhhhh or even when hes so good-looking u jus wanna steal him home n keep him w u.

or when the room only belongs to u two even tho e entire room is filled w ppl? or how even tho the lightes r so bright but in ur eyes the place is dimmed, and there r onli the 2 of u toking softly, submerged in the mutual serenity u bring to each other?

n u feel so bad n tormented when girls r w him> eeks. haha.

i tink i have been shot with a posion arrow called -like bug. im dead. i have to cure myself. im not suppose to like anyone. i mustnot. yes i will not like him.

butterfly___________