butterfly__________

Saturday, November 12, 2005
10:09 PM

i wonder if e biore pore pack thing works....not that i have black heads...but i jus wanna look nicer for the concert:) haha. i bought it mainly cos it has a purple box.

n i asked my mom y is it that the our noses have so many pores? den she said cos we need e nose to breathe. i was like ok. 10 mins later...i was like huh? dun we use our nostrils to breathe? oh well. mb the pores r aids to e nostrils. afterall they r frens.

today i discovered a few things. im actually very talkative. giggolo mingz help me discover tt:) thanks. i talk everywhere, to my frens, to my dog, and even in frnt of e com, im multi-talking, i have to tok to my parents, my frens online and blog in my diary. it jus seems as if i have endless things to tok about.

hiaz. how? noone blifs tt i am actually a person hu prefers solitude, hu prefers seriousness. except for feng perhaps, she realises the fact tt my blogs are serious. even when i dun tink they r. my feelings r true, but i like to see life in a fun way. wad is life w/o joy n laughter? i tink its worth it to sacrifice ur face n dignity for joy.

n clare. u r truly a nice fren. not to me perhaps. but def to her. my insensitivity contrasts distinctly to your care and concern for her. sometimes things jus shoot out of my mouth w/o goin thru my brain( as always). u r so good im ashamed to be standing nxt to u. really. im sorry i am so insensitive to her feelings.

i guess ive been raised insensitive. or rather i ahve become immune to remarks and insensitive to others' feelings. all ard me, my frens r thin n they make daily comments bout how fat they r. it hurts really. when i myself is fat and everyone sees tt but dun say much. n when buying clothes, it hurts even more, when they can all squeeze into s n u mite nt even squeeze into l. hah.

oh well.perhaps i will remain tt way to myself foreva. to alleviate e pain? but to others, i dunno how powerful my words can be. i dunno how much they can hurt u. i do at times. ignore my snide remarks. dun cry. cos i will def cry w u n wipe ur tears for u. smile. cos i like to see e row of teeth even if they mite be yellow.

today is e 8th day i like u? tot i got over it. but i didnt. it got worse. its now into anotehr stage. im in shit. cure me. find some medicine. wish i can c u rite now. dun hurt me, ok? will pen my own love story w/o tmr nite.

butterfly___________