butterfly__________

Thursday, November 03, 2005
12:24 AM

Yeaaaaa....God is good. He gave me waye who help me put music on my blog n it is more "lived in now" God bless her...so nice for helping comp idiot like me.

One more piece of good news to share. I GOT THE JOB!!! an internship with sph news yeaaaaa i am now one step closer to being a journalist>>> i am posted to wanbao...wanted xinmin but anything lah so long as i get to be a fake reporter for 5 weeks...

dunno wad will happen...maybe will kena sack the first day haha....but oh well at least i had e job for one day...and i mite last u noe.:)

in an ultra cheery mood today thanks to waye for brightening up my blog n my life. the music is frm my fav band michael learns to rock. i like tis song a lot. very soothing. ahzzzzzzzzzz ims till so excited..

today when i woke up it was ten. IT WAS NOT SUPPOSED TO BE TEN. IT WAS SUPPOSED TO BE 6.20AM. the time i was SUPPOSED to wake up at. n my gd fren feng knew tt i cfm overslept cos i promised to show her MAGIC CARD tricks. ahhhhhhhhhh.

anyway feng u dint miss much. according to most ppl, they tot my tricks were stupid. haha. clare stole the limelight with his magic card tricks.

anyway those above were all crap. today we had SEX EDUCATION. ooh...first time i had sex education i think. quite interesting. in the first place i dun need sex ed. im all for abstinence till marriage man. but i wanna learn how to preach abstinence to youths my age.

yes just a few views bout pre-marital sex. xiaoyuan asked me if i will ever have pre-marital sex. obviously my ans was "NO!" a convicted and justified no. its not cos my mummy say cant. its not cos my religion say cannot. they r not isolated reasons. they are wad influenced my thinking bout premarital sex. and thanks hupan and laytin for knowing me so well and for telling yuan i will not have pms haha. yes.

and so some others might rebutt and say. u cant predict ur future. u might have pre-marital sex in "the heat of the moment". then i was like. i can predict my future. and i will uphold my belifs and principles. i will PREVENT "the heat of the moment " situations. why cheapen and go all the way before ur marriage?> u r selling urself short u noe. yes. its best NOT TO have premarital sex.

yes and i was like e spokesperson for AGAINST PMS today. n i had to role-play as a promiscuous person today. ARGHZ. to my horror. the facillitator told me to act as sally and tis guy frm S3 became dick. and so we were "supposed" to have sex. using 2 PIECES OF BREAD. OMG. I WAS SO GROSSED OUT. yes. excuse me for my juvenile behaviour. but i was embarassed. n i was gracious enuff to not leave rudely. my piece of bread had blueberry jam. n his had peanut butter. n we "smacked the two pieces of breads together" that was e equivalent of sex in their opinion. oh my.

i noe many ppl r welcome to the idea of having premarital sex. wad with the so-called lower chances of pregnancy and contractinc STDs with precautins and stuff. condoms, pills. they are all bullshit lah i tell u. u can still get pregnant n get eeky diseases lor. WAD FOR RITE. n dun give me "the heat of moment" crap. i dun dig it. u got a brain, u got ethics, use it for the good of human kind.

and im not exaggerating the problem. do u noe tt thousands of ppl have AIDS in singapore? im not kidding. they cud be ur frens relatives even family. and so many ppl r our age. 15-24/ do i hear a gasp??? WAD FOR MAN. u get satisfied for one hour? u get tortured for the rest of ur life if the result is AIDS, stds, or an unwanted baby. yes. those are realli bad. im not ur mommy im not ur anything,. im jus placing the facts for u to c. choose the best.

i think virginity is prized. it is a gift u can give ur husband/wife. it is so precious becos its urs and noone else in the world possesses ur virginity. and im not jus tlaking bout girls im talking bout guys too. remain a clean slate till the day. cos when the slates are drawn, i assure u they will be the most beautiful painintgs in the world, with pics of u ur spouse n ur children with God smiling frm heavens down at u.:)

and it is not jus frmmy own view. i havent fallen in love. i havent had sex my view wudnt be credible. today at the sex talk the facillitator. he was cool. ok so all the while he was preaching bout abstinence till marraige and i thought he must have abstained till marriage. then at the end he told us he had sex once before his present wife. to say the least. i was shocked. i mean the entire room were :O. no gaspes. no deaths. we were jus very surprised. n wad he said next moved me to tears.

he was at the church. watching his wife walk down the aisle. his beautiful wife walking, holding her father's arm walking down the long beautiful aisle. and there he was, thinking. " im gonna marry this woman, this woman i love, this woman im gonna spent the rest of my life with" and he was floating on air, thriving on love. and then he thought" why didnt i wait? why didnt i wait to give myself to her?" he regretted having sex with his previous gf. and yes., this is frm a man.

and so he told us if we get into a relationship in future, our other halves will surly ask us did u have sex b4? the guys can lie and of cos the girls cant. but r u sure u wanna lie? he didnt lie and after a struggle he answered yes to his present wife. she hurt for a moment cos she was saving herself for him. she cooled it for 2 weeks and decided to get bac with him. Thank God. for giving them the power of love. for giving him a second chance.

yes. and so virginity is very precious. like a gem. like a star in the sky. something tts yours. save it till after marraige. for ur beloved one.

and I SAW JERRY FRM SPORE IDOL AT THE TALK. knew i shud go for it:p hee hee. i totlaly enjoyed it.

butterfly___________