butterfly__________

Tuesday, February 28, 2006
6:29 PM

I forgot how to blog.

I forgot why I want to blog.

How??? I am in such a stupid dilemma.

I probably shouldn't even be blogging now. I have hong lou meng test tomorrow. And I only finished the yuan wen.

I don't know why. I am very ti4 ki4 ( hokkien for adamant) on reading my yuan wen before I jump into the notes. Because I feel like I dui4 bu4 qi3 Mr. Cao Xue Qin if I never read his original text first then immediately go and read lay man's perception of it.

I think he would have a spasm in his grave.

Which is why I insisted on finishing it. And I did. I hope I did his text good by reading at a moderate speed.( Usually I just scan)

Went to the dentist's yesterday. I think she should be a the head of an anti-fat people programme. She kept joking about my weight and at the end of the session, she said " just joking lah.". She should be very glad that I am very used to people joking about my weight and I can take jokes. If it were another person, my dentist would be in tan tock seng by now.

What did she joke about? She told me I might spoil her chair cos' I am so fat
She told me that I might have to buy 2 airplane seats in future :(
She was ASTONISHED when I told her I am in HC doing jc2. In fact she asked " WAH you can study ah?" To which I replied" of cos I can, I am fat, not stupid."

Somehow the world seems to equate fat= stupid. But hey! Fat people are not stupid. We just have eating disorder. In anycase, I have 10000000000000 reasons to lose weight now. I do not want to end up as a spinster. I do not want to marry a guy fatter than me. Because the children might be fatter than us. I do not want to die of heart attack, diabetes, kidney failure, stomach cancer, colon cancer. Wadever. AND I do not want to be a fat bride. Shallow as it might seem, ALL people do not want their other halves to be fat.

And I am very worried that I can't get a job because bosses tend to think that if you are fat, you eat a lot. And you might embezzle their funds. That's like bullshit lah. Fat people have their own money to eat can? :)

DTFPOTW. is the name of my organization. Stands for Defend the Fat people of this World.

butterfly___________