butterfly__________

Wednesday, February 15, 2006
7:32 PM

I can feel the aches in my thighs, my shoulders, my sore neck.
My sprained and aching ankle.
Oddly, I am happy.

They are evidences of my participation of HC cross country 2006. Thus I am more than happy to endure some pain for some personal satisfaction.

I was so so so happy. I did not stop at all. Even when I went up the slope, I tried running and passed many girls who were gossiping. Haha. Heard flashes of juicy gossip.

Even when my foot hit a rock, I did not stop. It hurt a lot and now I realised that I sprained my foot. Using my precious Tiger Balm to rib on it now. The satisfaction of completing a run is just pure ecstacy.

I forgot how much I used to love running and adventurous stuff back in BP. It must be the chs slope. PUI. It caused me to hate running. I have rediscovered myself in Machrichie. Woohoo.

I raced myself against the cars on the highway and found out that I beat every single one of them- only because the train of cars is never ending. hAHA.What a joke.

So sweet of my lep friends to cheer me on. They saw that I was running alone. Only because I pang sei Wanqi. *sorry wq, I promised myself must perservere*. And so I did. I feel good. I feel good.

Ironically, I did not see any monkeys. Actually I expected hoards of them to run behind me while I ran in fear to get away of them. So sad. I like to fight with monkeys.

Most unfortunately, I met Blackie along the way. He kept cheering me on and smiling at me to hurry. All the while, my heart was thumping even more rapidly- not because I was tired, but because of him. I kept thinking " Gosh. Does my hair look like bird's nest? Gosh. I must be as red as a cooked lobster now. Oh no. I am so so so untidy and ugly. How?"

I ran faster. So that he cannot see me clearly. Heng. He still smiled at me.

Yeah, and so I flew down the rest of the way. I saw Huey Sun and Ying Ying first. They were cheering me on! I felt so so so happy, like a superstar. And their shouts enpowered me and I ran even faster. Like a bird.

Tong tong shouted my name. Siok shouted my name. And I flew and I flew. And I saw the finish line. ~~~~~FINISH~~~~~ I was not first. I was not last. But I am the hero of the day, in my heart. That I had accomplished something that I have forgotten about.

Thanks HS YY and FY for saying I ran very fast. Because I really did run quite fast today.:)

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I am unhappy today( before the cross country).

I discovered that my mortal lied to me. He told me yesterday that he had my present at home and was only punishing me by not bringing my present because I owed him a letter.

Today his mortal told me that he was too busy to go and get it.

Why lie? You can just give me a card. Or just a simple letter. And I will be very happy. Hurt.

You lied and you made me wait.

My angel also almost the same. I say dunneed then really dunneed. Of course I said no because the present was like !!!!! I need something that can touch the chords of my heart. A card? A letter? Flower?

Don't promise people something you cannot realise. Because when they feel let down it hurts.

At the end of the Valentine's Day and Total Defence Day. I am left empty- nothing from my angel. Nothing from my mortal.

Pui. Does it look like I am greedy? pui. Yes. I am just greedy for some memorialia. Something that I can remember yesterday by.

Pui.

butterfly___________