butterfly__________

Sunday, March 05, 2006
4:11 PM

Disappointed.

That is how I feel.

I have no right to judge and I will not.

I do not know how is it possible that so many of you are able to tell me that you "don't feel like going" or that the gathering will be "sian", and with that, you are not going.

Do you realise the bare less than ten of us( who are going) have homework? social life? family life? econs article review ( me mainly) to abandon?? So that we can go for jts/stj?

It sounds horrifyingly stupid to even feel a little upset about this. I do care. That you people do not care enough to just sit down there for a few hours to get to know your DIRECT juniors and eat a meal with them.

WHY?

Other classes CAN have STJ+JTS peacefully and happily but we can't even gather for one single miserable We Treat Ourselves.

Our own class never even had a gathering of our own before.

"I will pop over and say hi" 2 gave me this answer. I could hear the rustle of crowd beside them through the phone.

" I am sick." What sick? Cough.

Many more missed calls. My finger hurts.

Friend calls " Who's going? Very few is it?" At least her conscience was pricked.

"huh....very sian lor..."

I hung up on one of them. I mean 2. I always hang up on people to show my disdain and disappointment. I do not hide my emotions.

2 messages from the Jing yi and one passed down from Ting xuan to encourage people to go.

I looked at my homework.

I looked at my television.

I looked at my bed.

My mom looked at me " You want to go gran's place to see her?"

I thought, never mind, tonight come home then do homework.

I thought, never mind, I have all the time in the world to watch tv tomorrow.

I thought, never mind, I will just catch up on my sleep tomorrow.

I looked at my mom and said " cannot. tonight have to go for gathering. next week then I go see gran."

Fabulous. What an awesome day.

butterfly___________