butterfly__________

Tuesday, March 07, 2006
6:46 PM

Ah-choo~Ah-choo~

I'm sneezing at a rate of 3 Ah-choos~ per second. It ain't a pleasant sight. My nose hangs precariously on the edge. I'm worrying.

I hope it doesn't drop off. Maybe this is my retribution for even trying to show my class some problem I see.

I have a splitting headache, sore throat, sneezing and a severe bout of heartache.

Thank goodness for Fengyi, I thank God that she is in my life, always so nice and so celestial like and always have undying support for me. Maybe she doesn't agree with some things I do, I say?But she never ever tells me off. I truly appreciate that.

Also Jia yan.....Feel like crying when I see you , when I talk to you because you are my pillar of support as well.. I don't know how uncontrolled my temper would get if you are not there to balance it off with your niceness...

Thanks weiqi! you are mentioned! for your company. Your laughter truly brightens up my life. I am happy just seeing you.

And no, I am not starring in Brokeback Mountain-the female version. I truly feel comforted by my female friends.

And no, I am not dying voluntarily anytime soon. I just feel the need to thank some people lest I die involuntarily. I have been too caught up in many small things to see the big picture in life. For that, I realise some things in life are really meagre? That don't warrant so much of my attention. If there is a God of small things, please, help me?

I do not want to be Baby Kochamma. Too ominous. She ends up being a spinster , you know.

I am pleased with my literature grade. Thank you Lord.

I went to Singapore General Hospital today.

To see my ill uncle who has liver cancer. I prayed twice on my way to the hospital today, asking God not to take my uncle away from us.

I saw many sick people in the hospital. I realise I do not like SGH at all. It has no air-con and no nice garden. And all too many sick people.

Thanks for your boliao call:D It was truly heart-warming in the still stony hospital.

I couldn't talk when I saw my uncle, because I was so afraid I would cry? I'm not too good with words when I see my uncle suffering.

I mumbled," uncle, do you feel awful?" Which is like so duh. Of course he feels awful right. He's in the hospital for goodness's sake.

He smiled and said, "i'm ok. thanks for coming." I think he was very happy that I went to see him, because he didn't expect me to go.

The hospital is not a nice place. You see sick people in blue and pink uniforms. And it makes them sicker, I tell you. If I have a hospital, I will let my patients decorate their own uniforms, purple-coloured based.

Come to think of it, purple is not too good as well, because it is a mixture of blue and pink? Pui.

God, please let uncle recover.

There is no issue there.

I got upset because I love you guys enough to care.

If it was any other shit class, I wouldn't even care. There is certain degree of high calibre that I am measuring you all with. And that is the code of honour, trust altogether.

You missed the point though, I do not love our class any lesser? I do not doubt the class unity because of one day? It is there, and i feel it!

You are right, how many classes out there would even care that you are sick, and ask you "are you ok?" when they see that you have a piece of tissue stuck to your nose. No doubt,I'm touched. Cosy in my heart.

And of course, you have friends like me who like to scare their friends by telling them how ghostly the sick bay is?:P

or frown at you when you pon lessons.
or tell you that you are pretty when you have a new image.
or tell you that your eye bags are positively accentuated and teach u how to cure them.
or tell you that you use nice words in msn conversations.
or try telling people that you are really a nice person when they bad-mouth you.
or give you a squeeze on your arm and say "jiayou"
or say "ive missed you" cos you are always so busy.
or help you to put more condensed milk in your tea:D
or make you laugh by being entertaining on purpose during econs.
or tell you that you have nice pens.
or even try her bestest to make you happy all the time.

I am mean, not evil.
I see things, I must say.
I say things, doesn't mean I want to hurt you.
There are things that need to be done. And when they don't get done, there needs to be some evaluation.And unfortunately in this case, of all people, it has to be me, the one with the twisted dramatic mind to do the hated job.

Sorry seems to be the hardest word.

butterfly___________