butterfly__________

Friday, March 03, 2006
11:19 PM

I feel extremely relaxed in my Hello Kitty! pyjamas.

I am typing at a leisurely pace on my keyboard. Listening to "Best I ever had" by Vertical Horizon, which is so apt and soothing for my mood.

I wish everyday was a Friday. Then I can wear my pyjamas and use my computer and not worry about tomorrow.

I am happy. :D

I just wore the Indian costume that I will be wearing for the performance for my mom to see. I look stupefyingly indianish. If there is such a word, if not, I just coined it.

My mom looked at me quizzically and burst out laughing, saying " Wah. you are indian lei. Next time marry indian lah."

To which I replied, " ok. if only my boyfriend is as handsome as the star from mission kashmir." He is GORGEOUS.

Well, my costume is YELLOW.With many GLITTERY stuff. I like it. It makes me look royal. I feel like Princess Jasmine from Aladdin.

If I ever said anything offending about the culture, I take it back. I have learnt to respect the culture for what it is, the people for what they are. I like my indian teachers, especially Divya:)

I would miss indian dancing. Afterall, it has been the focus of my life for the past 2 weeks.

ICS appeared in Tamil newspaper. And on the corner of page 4 of the straits times. You may borrow from me if you would like to see my beautiful face.

I danced with Bryan today. It's not so much of a dance. All I can say is, it's a different feeling altogether - unlike when I danced with Clare.

Everything seemed to be less of a puzzle then.

Bryan kept laughing. Clarence didn't laugh. What a vast difference. But I did not have to act like I was a flirt during the concert. This time I must, due to staging effects.

Oh shit. I am crapping again.

Teacher said something that disturbed me greatly today.

What is freedom to me? What is my ambition? What is my fantasy?

In that short frame of 2 mins, I tried frantically to search for an answer. I realise I did not have an answer.

I finally realise why I am never troubled with the issue of "freedom".
-I have too much of it.

What is my ambition? I thought hard. And long. And somemore.
Journalist? Lawyer? HR director? MP? teacher?

Suddenly I feel so lost. I have too many ambitions, until I don't know what I want to be.

I know I am good. Not at math though. Heehee.

AH. I shall continue this stuff at another blog. That's it for today.

butterfly___________