butterfly__________

Monday, March 20, 2006
5:21 PM

I realise how ironically prophetic my previous blog entry had been. All the scenerios happened to me today.

Maybe subconsciously, I willed them to happen.

My mind blanked out during econs essay.
I think very differently form the way the examiner thinks- I couldn't think.
I look at the math paper and realise I had no formula in my head.
I better go and delete the lep one, lest it happens.

I will probably get double F. The only thing I can pray about now is that they won't make me drop any subject. I will carry my four subjects to the grave. Noone believe I blank out. I really did.

It is this horrendous feeling that your heart is panting at a rate of 50 heartbeats per second. Your brain keep spinning. You feel nauseous. You think oh shit oh shit I know this. But there's nothing in your head.

While I was doing math paper, I kept sighing and hyperventilating. I think xiaoming saw me heave my shoulders up and down. That was because I couldn't breathe. Thanks for giving me a tap on my shoulder. Really needed that.

I will die for econs. Not because of my lack of aptitude or intelligence, but for my lack of information. I couldn't think at all.

I shall put it in my head that I can do it. I CAN DO IT! I will do it. I must I can I will. Jiayou Taysi!

Thanks braces-endowed friend for going out with me today. Quite fun. Especially when I think of the prank I'm going to play on wednesday.
Many of you will get it from me. Woohoo!

I will not blog for the next few days I hope. Think I waste too much time online and on tv. I can't be like that.

I am the best!

Thanks Jia jia:)

Xiaoyuan! We must be mugger team( provided that they don't make me drop subjs.)

butterfly___________