butterfly__________

Saturday, September 30, 2006
9:24 PM

I tried seeking help from one friend.

Who then recommended me to another friend.

Ok.

I bawled like a kid today. Haiya. In front of Ms Li somemore.

A couple of reasons to my unstoppable crying.

1. A friend was like impatient when she taught me math:( I can't help it if I cannot remember:(. Then I got reminded of the sinda kids that we teach( all em3s) and she would behave the same way.

2. I messaged my math teacher. Who didn't reply me.

3. I messaged my econs teacher. Who said " need to change new one!" in my request to ask for his opinions on my results.

4. It was raining.

5. I am lacking in faith.

6. The inability to tell my parents is burdening me.

7. I don't have confidence in myself.

8. I feel guilty for missing out on church stuff.

To the extent that I cried myself to sleep for 2 hours.
Alone in my room.
Almost couldn't breath.
And was terribly worried God would get angry.

I prayed and prayed and asked for His help.

I will continue to do so.

butterfly___________