butterfly__________

Sunday, October 08, 2006
5:33 PM

Yesterday was the most trying day of my life I tell you.
It was so horrifying that I actually contemplated death.
Even I myself was worried for me.

Early in the morning, I took out my math notes to read. And started puking incessantly all the stuff I ate and had diarrhoea. Then I thought it was phobia! As is cued, the haze started getting stronger and I aligned my future to it.

I started thinking that First I would fail my A levels.
Not get into local university and killing myself.
Jump down from the 12th floor.
And starting crying hysterically and frowning.

My mom was so worried. She thought I was going mad.

I also. Then I wanted to vomit again. And have diarrhoea. And slept because I was so tired from all the induced emotion commotion.

Freaked out man I tell you.
Never in my 18 years of life I experienced that.

Thank Goodness Clarence called me to scold me then I woke up a bit.
And then I continued worrying about my future till I fell asleep.

This morning Siok analysed and thought I had depression.
So did I.

I thought I vommitted due to stress.
This morning, my favorite doctor once again informed me that : You have gastirc flu, not stress. People don't vomit from stress!!!! And laughed for a good 30 seconds.

I have decided. In the event should anything bad happen for the near future ( touch wood)

1. You all are PROHIBITED from asking me my grades, or how did I do, unless I tell you myself, on the day when A level results are released.
2. You are NOT ALLOWED to ask me why I cry, if I do.
3.You should not even come near me, unless I tell you to.
4. If you don't see me in university, DON'T ASK me why.

Ok. enough of that, because I will see you there.
Shall not worry.

butterfly___________