butterfly__________

Tuesday, January 09, 2007
11:10 PM

"I think I feel so much more for Madd and Zee because they're survivors, they came through so much. Shiloh seemed so privileged from the moment she was born. I have less inclination to feel for her...I met my other kids when they were 6 months old, they came with a personality. A newborn really is this...Yes, a blob! But now she's starting to have a personality...I'm conscious that I have to make sure I don't ignore her needs, just because I think the others are more vulnerable."
- Angelina Jolie in the new issue of U.K. Elle

One weird woman.

I am making an effort.
You are not.
Don't give me shit.
You are only capable of hurting me because I am so vulnerable to my emotions.
I will control them.
I question your integrity.
You know who you are.

I am not having an easy time at work.
Teaching is a lot of work.
My student brought a knife to school today.
No biggie.
I had it under control.
I feel like an adult.
I think Singapore's Chinese textbooks suck.
I wonder how I survived through 12 years of Chinese.

Chinese teachers are dead boring.
Their jokes are not funny.
My friends are all from other departments.
I wonder why.
Dear God, please please guide me.
Thank you.

Thank you, you and you.
You guys rock.
Call me a relief teacher and you are dead.
Because I am doing the actual job.
Blar. It is so tiring.

butterfly___________