butterfly__________

Sunday, February 11, 2007
10:44 PM

I am currently setting my students' test papers.

Trying to adopt some questions from the NA assessment book, but to my horror, I realised that the questions in this book were molded after the secondary one express book.

I feel like puking.
My stomach feels weird.
I think stomach flu hit me again.:(

It feels like the stressful period before A levels all over again.

I want to blog about my birthday, but I don't feel well currently.

My heart hurts.
My stomach hurts.
My brain hurts.

I hope I don't die without dating first.

I am so happy that day.
When he smsed me to wish me happy birthday, and was a tad too pissed that i didn't ask him to come.

Instead of feeling bad and guilty, I felt Dui. ( means hammer my heart.)
Wished I had asked him.:(
I just assumed he didn't have time for my birthday.

I wonder why I feel Dui.
Obviously enough, there was a period when I really really liked him.
Badly enough to make myself angry and emotional when he agitated me.
I am hardly an agitated person.

Like real. Haha.

I can see no conclusion to whatever thing I might have for him.
So why bother letting anyone know?
So, I just stopped liking him.

This is what happens to relationships which will never conclude.

You might like him enough to do anything for him.
But one day, with the snap of a finger,
you figure that you can't see the light at the end of the tunnel,
you stray,
you feel scared because it is dark,
you shout for his name,
all you hear is vague random echoes,
there are several routes to follow in the dark,
you might meet a blocked end if you go through one,
you might meet a monster if you go another,
you might fall from a cliff if you can't see in the dark,
and there he is, in one of those many caves.

Would you take a risk and walk through all the caves?

Maybe your heart might have died before seeing him.
Maybe he might have left without you.
Or maybe, he was never there in the first place.
You just imagined him to be there.

The obvious solution would be to turn back and seek for another route.
One with obvious path to .....................i don't know...

butterfly___________