butterfly__________

Friday, April 13, 2007
6:34 PM

Working at this new place is sucking all the energy out of me.
Being the person who has an abundance of energy, you can imagine how tired I feel right now.

Drained.

I have never been so angry in my life.
I mean, I was upset at maths, or rather my inability to handle jc maths, but never was I angry at myself, nor at maths.
I am so angry that I had to use anger management skills on myself.

Teaching is a stressful job.
One day if I have kids, and my children are rude to their teachers, they are going to get one tight slap from me and grounded for life.
You should have plenty of respect for your teacher.

Today, I discovered a whole new side of me that I never knew existed.
I knew I had a temper.
I knew I could get angry.
But I never knew that the word Wrath existed in my dictionary.
Isn't Wrath worse than anger or rage?
Yes it is. Andrea, yes it is.
In fact it was so bad I felt smoke coming out of my head.
Thank God for all the support I'm getting.

And so the story goes that ms tehsi went inside the class, expecting the class to take out books to read-quietly. They are 15 years old for goodness's sake.
tehsi asked the class politely to settle down and read, which is what they would do on normal days.
today, everything snapped. In me. In them. or is it friday the 13th?
i would go around the class, and say " please take out your book and read and stop talking."

but you wouldn't listen. you just won't. because you are forever right, and i am forever wrong. im sorry i even said please ok.
i would repeatedly ask everyone in the class to read, politely, gently.

IS THIS HOW YOU ABUSE MY TOLERANCE LEVEL WHICH IS VERY HIGH?
AND SO I SNAPPED.

THE 3 WADAFUCK SHITTERHOLERS STARTED POINTED AT ME AND SAID VERY LOUDLY "CHER YOUR SKIRT CUT OUT FROM CURTAIN IS IT?" I said, no, it does not concern you where I made my skirt at.

" WALAU, HER FASHION SENSE DAMN BAD LEI." The 3 of them started mimicking me as I was folding my arms, in a very cross manner. AND CONTINUED LAUGHING. I told them, " Can you please stop laughing, I do not appreciate this type of rudeness from you. " All 3 were not reading. I approached this girl and asked, " where's your book? didn't I ask you to start reading?" AND SHE HAD THE CHEEK TO STAND UP, NOT FACE ME, TURN AWAY AND WALKED AWAY! AND ROLLED HER FREAKING FUGGLY EYES AT ME BEFORE SHE LEFT.

AND I WAS LIKE," HELLO. WHAT TYPE OF ATTITUDE IS THIS?"

The rest of the class continues to be noisy, ignoring my requests.
Just went the bell rang, it was show time for me.
I am usually a very jovial person, but things can get really ugly when jovial people become angry, when jovial people are no longer happy but extremely extremely angry.

tehsi ROARED:" WHAT DO YOU THINK YOU ARE DOING? ARE YOU BLIND? ARE YOU DEAF? DID I NOT ASK YOU TO TAKE OUT BOOKS AND READ? ARE YOU DEFYING MY ORDERS? DID I NOT ASK YOU REPEATEDLY TO TAKE OUT YOUR BOOKS? DOES IT MEAN I AM NOT AN ACTUAL TEACHER AND MY POWERS ARE UNDERMINED? I TELL YOU YOU DO NOT ABUSE MY NICENESS, YOU DO NOT SHOW DISRESPECT TOWARDS ME, NOR DO YOU DEFY MY REQUESTS. NOW I WOULD LIKE YOU TO READ QUIETLY FOR 5 MINS BEFORE I LET YOU OFF FOR RECESS."

what tehsi would have like to ROAR:" WHAT TYPE OF FUCKERS YOU ARE? DID YOU COME OUT OF SHIT HOLES? AM I HERE TO BE TORTURED BY YOU? WHAT IN THE FUCKING HELL DID YOU COME TO SCHOOL FOR? TO WASTE YOUR FUCKING TIME? I'M TELLING YOU MY TIME IS PRECIOUS, IF NOT FOR THE FACT THAT IT PAINS ME TO SEE THE FUTURE OF SINGAPORE DEGENERATING IN YOUR FUCKING FILTHY HANDS AND DISRESPECTFUL MINDS, I WOULD NOT HAVE BOTHERED. WHAT YOU WOULD HAVE LIKED ME TO DO IS TO SIT DOWN AND NOT CARE ABOUT IT RIGHT? FUCK YOU FUCK YOU AND SCREW YOU."

There, you have it.
woosh, anger dispelled.
And so, majority of the class manage to see sense, but some obviously couldn't.
I said, noone is allowed to leave the class until I allow you to, one by one.

THE STUPID IDIOT SON OF A BITCH DAMN SHIT DIRTY HOLE HAD THE CHEEK TO TAUNT ME AND SAY " I'M LEAVING, I DO NOT CARE ABOUT YOU."

Calmly and with an air of slicing coldness, I said," You leave. You just leave. You jus make one step out of the room and you will not ever come into my class again. Because the next time I see you, it will be in another room, the discipline master's room. And I repeat again, if you dare leave the class, that is it. Leave, leave!"

And so the 3 horrible idiotic kids left the class, I was fuming inside, and I said, since you have the guts to do it, you will have to bear the consequences for it. And so I meted out the consequences.

Which, according to sy, was one of the scariest sight she's ever seen before when I reenacted the scene to my friends.

I went to the dm and told him everything, thank goodness he supported my decision.
Some kids deserve to have a chance, some just done.
FOr this girl she definitely did not.
The one who rolled her eyes at me, at that moment, I just wanted to gorge her eyes out, put chilli oil on it, then fill it in her eye sockets, rip it out again and cook it in fish head curry.

And later in the confrontation stage, she had the cheek to look righteous!
Shake her legs and I WAS LIKE" LOOK AT YOU, WHAT TYPE OF BODY LANGAUGE ARE YOU CONVEYING TO ME? YOU ARE TELLING ME YOU DO NOT CARE AT ALL."
SHE SAID TO THE DM," THIS TEACHER IS PICKING ON ME."
AND THE DM SAID, " THERE IS NO REASON TO, SHE DOES NOT KNOW YOU."
AND IN FORNT OF THE DM, SHE STILL ROLLED HER EYES AT ME.

I WAS LIKE WHAT IN THE FUCKING HELL REARED THIS TYPE OF HORRIBLE CHILD. IS THAT THE WAY YOU BEHAVE IF YOU ARE APOLOGETIC?

I asked, are you apologetic for humiliating me?
" why did you laugh?do you think it's correct for you to be so juvenile?"

AND SHE HAD THE CHEEK TO SAY " BUT IM 15 WHAT"

even if you are 2, it does not give you the right to be rude ok,
grow up. please, i beg you, just grow up.

butterfly___________